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  Angie shook her head. “He makes me tired.”

  Jack stirred the marinara and shrugged. “He’s ten.”

  “I didn’t act like that.” Angie remembered being ten. Her father was barely present at that age and wouldn’t have noticed a loud door.

  “No, honey, you didn’t.”

  Angie wondered if he really remembered. He’d spent the majority of that year half-baked at the beach with a woman named Monica, who painted icons on the sand just so she could watch them wash away with the tide. She claimed to be very existential. Angie thought she was flaky.

  “You should probably change for your date.” The sauce was simmering and it wasn’t time to cook the pasta.

  Jack looked at his clothes—the long dress ended just below his knees. Even though she should be used to the visual combination of feminine skirt and hairy legs, she still found it disconcerting.

  “Oh, yeah. I forgot.” He hung his apron on a hook in the pantry and began to pull his housedress over his head.

  “Jesus, Dad, in your room. I don’t want to see that.”

  “How did I raise such a prude?”

  His question was legitimate. He was a dress-wearing hippie, a free spirit who let the moment determine his actions. The thought of floating through life like a damn leaf made Angie shudder. She wanted control. She made plans, worked hard, and adjusted. She refused to just let life happen.

  “Just lucky, I guess.”

  Learning that her family was different was a lesson that came in degrees for Angie. Her first day of kindergarten, she came home and asked where her mom was. Jack’s answer—“Honey, she loves you and will be back soon”—lost its power when year after year the woman never reappeared. She was long dead, for all Angie knew. Her first soccer game—second grade, Running Hornets—all the other fathers showed up wearing jeans and T-shirts. Her dad wore a lovely skirt and work boots. A friend had dared him and he—in a giggling fit—couldn’t resist a good prank. He’d liked it so much it became a habit.

  Moments like that curved her view of life. She worked extra hard to be normal, to make up for her father’s eccentricities. When she was seventeen, it had been difficult. At twenty-seven, some of the bitter aftertaste was wearing off. She found him amusing.

  Angie closed her computer, homework on hold for a case of parenting, and called, “Oliver, come help me make the pasta.”

  The volume of his stereo increased. She didn’t know the song and felt older than usual. Oliver didn’t reply.

  Angie filled a large pot with water, added kosher salt and olive oil, and set it to boil. Before getting the pasta from the cupboard, she opened the breaker panel located inside the small pantry. She flipped the breaker for Oliver’s room and waited.

  The music died and Oliver hollered, “Ah, Mom!”

  “You can sit in your room in the dark with no music. Or you can come help me fix dinner. Your choice.” Angie couldn’t wait for Oliver to hit his teens. She’d been told thirteen was the worst, but couldn’t imagine him acting out more than he did now.

  Oliver appeared in the kitchen doorway, head down and shoulders slumped. He sulked like a champ.

  Angie handed him the box of noodles. “What’s so important about the mall?” Half of her wanted to just leave the topic alone. Everything was hypercritical to Oliver lately. No doubt he had attached a life-and-death meaning to a trip to the food court. Still, she wanted him to learn to approach conversations rationally, to be able to navigate difficult topics with grace.

  Oliver shrugged and poured the pasta in the rolling water.

  “Oliver? A shrug is not an actual form of communication.”

  “There’s this girl…” Oliver poked at the pasta with a fork.

  It was always about a girl. The same had been true when Angie had sneaked out to meet someone. Except she didn’t sneak because her dad didn’t keep track. He wasn’t home to do that.

  “I see.”

  “So you’ll let me go?” Oliver met her gaze, a hopeful, yet cautious smile on his face.

  She hated to disappoint. “No.”

  He gave up poking the noodles and sat at the table. “It’s not fair.”

  Angie wanted to point out that he wasn’t old enough to self-supervise at the mall. That, however, would only escalate to an argument about his maturity. Her head still hurt from the last time he tried to convince her that he was practically an adult.

  “Son, make a date with her for a different day when I can take you.”

  Oliver rolled his eyes and snorted. “Yeah, right.”

  “You’re not going with Richie’s brother. So it’s me or not at all.”

  “Fine. Whatever.”

  When he pouted like that, Angie wanted to ruffle his hair. She resisted.

  Jack reappeared wearing jeans and a black leather vest. No shirt. He tousled Oliver’s hair—Angie was jealous that Oliver let him do it—and said, “Help me set the table, squirt.”

  As they placed the dishes and silverware, a sweet smile, the one that reminded Angie of her little boy, gradually replaced Oliver’s frown. “Grandpa, maybe you could take me to the mall this weekend?”

  Jack laughed. “It’s possible.”

  Angie was unsure how her retirement-age father rated as cooler than she did. Unsure, but not surprised.

  They ate comfortably together, Oliver’s resolve to be unpleasant fading under his grandfather’s good cheer. As they finished, the loud rumble of a motorcycle engine rolled into the driveway.

  “Sounds like my date is here.” Jack was up and out the door, leaving the cleanup to Angie and Oliver.

  Angie watched her dad ride away, clutching the middle of a bleached-blond bombshell as she wound her Harley’s engine up higher than it needed to go in the short distance from Angie’s drive to the traffic-controlled intersection. Sandy took up more space than necessary, both visually and audibly.

  “You can finish your homework in your room, if you want.” Angie flipped Oliver’s breaker back on. “I’ll take care of the dishes.”

  Oliver escaped while Angie was in the mood to let him, leaving her alone.

  First, dishes, then homework, and she absolutely would not fantasize about Luna’s hands, her laugh, or her long, long legs that started at the floor and went all the way up to her perfect, squeezable ass.

  Friday, July 17

  Every table in The Cadillac was full, and Angie barely had room to walk from the kitchen to the table of ten rowdy college boys clomping their forks against the table. She reminded herself to smile as she set a plate in front of the ringleader.

  “Keep your shorts on, boss. You always in this big a rush?” She channeled the spirit of the stereotypical dive truck-stop waitress. The Cadillac wasn’t a dive, but with its trendy use of neon and black light, Angie imagined that was only a few years away.

  “Feisty. I like that.” The young man reached out to slap Angie’s ass. She dodged and continued to place plates on the long table.

  “Careful, son, you put your hand where it doesn’t belong, it may come back altered.” Thankfully, being playfully snarky was part of the package her manager embraced. She could say almost anything—and had—as long as she kept smiling. So far, however, she hadn’t tried to break off roaming fingers. She doubted she could get away with that, no matter how big her smile.

  Angie finished serving the table, then grabbed a large piece of white butcher paper from behind the counter. She folded it into an impromptu chef’s hat and wrote I shave my balls on it with a thick black marker.

  Then she dropped it on the loud college boy’s head, kissed him on the cheek, and flipped off the camera his buddy produced. She walked away as the light from the flash dissipated. The table erupted in hoots. “I think she likes you.” “I knew you shaved, man.”

  Angie escaped into the kitchen and her smile dropped.

  “You sure it’s a good idea to wind them up like that?” Tori asked as she brushed by, balancing too many plates.

  “Tip.
” Angie shrugged. She scooped half of Tori’s load out of her hands and followed her back into the mêlée, where she served Tori’s table, then made a much-needed dash to the ladies’ room.

  With her bladder no longer stretched beyond capacity, Angie exited the restroom and ran smack dab into Luna.

  “Whoa.” Luna placed a steadying hand on Angie’s elbow. “Careful there.”

  “Luna.” Angie should have apologized for almost knocking a customer flat. As it was, she barely managed the half-whispered acknowledgment of who stood before her.

  Luna’s face softened with recognition. “Angie.” She didn’t release her hold.

  They stared at each other for several moments. When Angie snapped out of Luna’s hypnotic hold on her, their faces were several inches closer. She stepped away from Luna. “How can I help you?”

  Luna’s hand fell to her side and she hesitated. “Perez sent me to pick up dinner.”

  “Perez?” Angie remembered Perez showing up a few nights ago in search of Tori. The two had been disgustingly flirty. Regardless, she needed to come up with more than a one-syllable answer. She took a breath and collected her thoughts. “I’ll get your food.” She ducked around Luna.

  “Wait.” Luna grabbed her arm a second time and the thrill shot through Angie. She couldn’t remember what she was supposed to be doing.

  Angie stepped backward and Luna advanced, her steady approach counterpoint to Angie’s faltering retreat. They continued like that, Luna stalking and Angie shrinking but wanting more, until Angie’s back hit the wall. With nowhere else to go, she squared her shoulders and held Luna’s half-lidded gaze.

  “Angie…” Luna cleared her throat, but her voice remained hoarse and low. “What are you doing Saturday?”

  The question caught Angie off guard. Her thoughts were focused on the nearness of Luna’s body, the whiskey-rough color of her voice, the ever-increasing field of bumps rising on her skin in the wake of Luna’s hungry gaze.

  “Saturday?” Angie fought to clear her head. “Why?”

  “I thought we could, uh, you know.” Luna’s stuttered response made her even sexier. “Date. A date. With me on Saturday.” She smiled confidently.

  Angie closed her eyes and focused on breathing. Luna’s scent overwhelmed her—leather and sage. She never realized how sexy the two were and swayed closer to Luna.

  “A date? With you?” Angie was a breath away from saying yes when she remembered her obligations. She shook her head slowly. “No, I work.”

  Luna’s smile faltered, then came back full force. “That’s okay. We can get together before that.” She said it like it was the perfect solution and of course Angie would agree.

  “No, my son has a ball game at Custer Park tomorrow afternoon.” No matter how much she wanted to spend more time with Luna, Saturday night or otherwise, Oliver came first.

  “Son?” Luna’s expression went from confident and seductive to baffled in a flash. “I forgot.”

  And that was the moment Angie knew would come, but wasn’t quite prepared for mentally. Being a mom moved her from date material to wife material. For some that was a major turn-on that triggered a need to load up the proverbial U-Haul and move in. For others, it meant it was time to move on. They didn’t want to get involved with a single mom. Knowing that Luna fell into the latter category didn’t cool the heat between them. It just made it impossible to act on.

  “Oh.” Despite the disappointment in Luna’s voice, she inclined her head closer to Angie’s.

  Luna’s breath tickled Angie’s skin, and she held herself perfectly still. God, she wanted Luna to close the gap between them.

  Before they could go any further, Tori’s voice interrupted. “Angie? Table twelve needs their check and sixteen wants to order dessert.”

  Life slammed back into focus. She was at work, not on a date. She placed both hands on Luna’s chest—God, it was a great chest—and pushed her away. “Stop.” She took a deep breath. “Just stop.”

  Luna stepped back, her face clouded with desire and confusion. Before she could speak, Angie ran past her and into the kitchen. Tori followed closely.

  “What the hell was that?” Tori’s smile was enormous.

  “Nothing.” And it really was nothing. Luna wouldn’t pursue the situation, whatever it was, after the reminder about Oliver.

  “That’s one hell of a nothing.”

  Angie didn’t answer as she printed out the check for the boisterous young men at table twelve.

  Later, with the check paid, tip on the table, and all his friends outside waiting, the fork-clomping leader approached Angie, the white paper hat folded and tucked under his arm. It amazed her how many people took those damned things home, like a treasure or something.

  “Hi.” He chewed his lip.

  Angie nodded. “Hi.”

  “Um, listen, I’m sorry about earlier.” His smile was slick with practiced frat-boy charm. Angie was certain this act got him a lot of action. “I was out of line.”

  “Yes.” She couldn’t stand where this production was headed. How much had he bet his buddies? Was she supposed to follow him to the bathroom and drop to her knees, or meet him after work and take him home? Luna’s scent clung to her and the memory of their near kiss was driving Angie crazy.

  “Can I make it up to you?” The playful, puppy-dog look was charming, she had to admit. God forbid Oliver ever got this good at picking up women.

  “No.”

  It took a moment for her answer to register. His smile fell. “No?” Clearly he was not used to being rejected.

  “See her?” Angie pointed at Tori. “She’s the only one who gets to make things up to me.” It was a convenient lie that they used frequently. It kept them safe without completely alienating the customer. Their boss liked it. As he pointed out on many occasions, lesbians were sexy.

  Tori glided over to Angie.

  The boy looked between Angie and Tori. “I don’t get it.” He was denser than most.

  Not bothering with further comment, Angie kissed Tori. Not a quick, could-be-friends kiss. Oh, no. She went full in, tongue and all. Everything she’d wanted to do with Luna earlier came pouring out. Her point had to be crystal clear. She was not in the mood for this boy.

  Tori had great technique and Angie wished, not for the first time, for even the tiniest spark. Nothing. She was tonsil deep and didn’t feel even a fraction of the energy she shared with Luna in just a glancing touch.

  When she finally pulled away, the boy was gone, but several other diners were cheering and clapping. She felt empty and her head was starting to ache.

  “Okay, floor show’s over.”

  It was another busy Friday night, which made Angie’s feet hurt and taxed her ability to be even fake-cheerful. Thank God, nights like that always passed quickly.

  Angie punched out and dove into her purse. Surely she had some ibuprofen in there somewhere. Mint? No. Hairspray? No. Safety pin? Ouch. No. Angie closed it and put it back. “Aha.” She pulled out the small bottle and smiled her first real smile of the night. It wasn’t a face-altering, light-up-the-room kind of smile, but it was genuine. She tapped out four of the little tablets. Eight hundred milligrams ought to slay the pounding in her temples.

  “Headache?”

  Angie swallowed the pills without water and held out the bottle. “Mmm-hmm. You need?”

  “No, I’m good.” Tori tugged on her sweater and threw her arm around Angie’s shoulders. “Poor thing, let’s get you home.”

  They walked together, no small talk, just the comforting presence of her best friend to help with the persistent throb behind Angie’s eyes. Angie paused when they reached Coraggio and looked through the window. She wished for an excuse to go in and say hi, but knew she wouldn’t take advantage of it even if she had one.

  Luna was working on a client, head bent to her work. Her hair formed a protective barrier, preventing Angie from seeing the design or catching Luna’s attention. She watched for several moments,
captivated by Luna’s intense focus. Not that she could see Luna’s eyes. They were hiding behind the cascading wall of rich brown hair. It was the way she held her body—controlled, each movement flowing, precise, and tight. No gesture wasted.

  Angie’s headache didn’t disappear, despite the perfect freeze-frame moment. But standing in the soft light that filtered through the storefront window, she realized that though the ache was still there, it just didn’t register. In the battle for her attention, Luna defeated the pain.

  Luna turned her head slightly, and Angie met her eyes for the first time. Luna straightened, right hand on her client’s shoulder, tattoo gun in the left, and held Angie’s stare. Her mouth curved in a gentle, unassuming smile, so different from their previous meeting.

  She’s left-handed. It wasn’t an important detail, but Angie added it to the small catalogue of information she had already stored away about Luna.

  Angie raised her hand in a small wave and Luna returned the gesture. They stared at one another so long, the moment stretched thin and she finally snapped back to reality. After lowering her hand she rushed to catch up with Tori, who was half a block ahead.

  Luna was a fantasy. One that she needed to get over quick. Women like Luna never stayed for breakfast. Angie, on the other hand, was a breakfast, lunch, and dinner-for-the-rest-of-our-lives kind of girl.

  The throb in her temple increased with every step.

  Chapter Three

  Saturday, July 18

  The sun was shining, and by the bottom of the seventh inning, Luna had gotten three hits. Granted, one was a foul, but the other two were solid. The first had been a low-sailing fly ball that landed between the players in left field. The second, a line drive, knocked the pitcher flat and pissed off the other team. She felt bad about that, but not bad enough to forfeit her base. She suffered through their jeers at first base.

  Three more hitters and it would be her turn at bat again. She didn’t expect that to happen this inning. The pitcher was all kinds of fired up after being embarrassed earlier. She hadn’t given up a hit since Luna caught her off guard.